Many of you offered encouragement yesterday about the house. Many of you said that more than likely it is a good thing, some of you said that the kitchen in that house was ugly (Ahem) which is true. And you know what? I think you were right.
Big changes are in store, in a good way. That doesn't mean change doesn't scare me, I think you know(if you have been here reading for a while) that I am petrified of change. For example, here is the conversation we had the night we found out that the house wasn't happening...
Me: This sucks.
Matt: Yep. Nothing we can do. How was work today?
Me: Miserable. TWO people were crying today...that place is toxic.
Matt: So quit.
Me: Haha oookay.
Me: What? Why are you staring at me? You gotta be kidding me, I can't quit!
Matt: Why not? It makes you miserable, and the building irritates your allergies. You can go full time to school, finish in a year or so, and get a job you love.
Me: Because I can't quit! We need the money.
Matt: For what?
The truth is -- we don't need the money. Especially since we won't be buying a house right now.
It kind of came down to this, follow my dream (finishing my Behavioral Sci. degree and working with people) or money. Which would make me happier and be better for us in the long run? I made a list of pros and cons (it's what I do! I HAVE TO WEIGH MY OPTIONS!).
I was pretty horrified to see that the ONLY con to quitting my job was having less spending money. When did money take over my life?
So I did. I turned in my two week notice. I won't actually be unemployed though, so I feel a little better. I will be typing legal transcripts from home.
I am so grateful that we are in the position to do this right now, and that this is not only what I want, but what my husband wants for me (seriously, I've said it before and I'll say it again, my husband is amazing, I have no idea how I got so lucky). But still...
I. AM. PETRIFIED.
Updated: I realized that some of you probably don't know that I currently go to school part-time at night. I will be able to enroll full time for classes in the spring semester. Since it will be full-time I probably have about a year and a half to two years(depends on when classes are offered, some of required classes are not offered every semester). Had I continued part time I would not graduate for around three years, maybe more.