So I know I kind of sprung that whole "we're having a baby!" thing on you, and now I think it's time to give you some more information about it, don't you?
I am about 9 weeks along, which means yes, I broke a cardinal rule of first trimester pregnancy and spilled the beans before three months was over. I really was going to try to wait to tell all of you, but the farther I progressed into the routine of morning sickness and all day fatigue. (This also explains the overall feeling of "blahness" I was describing earlier this month. As completely thrilled as we are that we are going to have a baby, the hormones are UNBELIEVABLE and I now have the ability to cry at the drop of a hat.)
As you know, we were not planning this pregnancy, so the two pink lines came as a complete shock to me. Somehow Matt knew before I did, and he was the one that convinced me to take the darned test. I figured with the stress of moving and just life in general I was just late, but NO SIRREE!
At about 5 weeks along I got cocky and may have actually muttered "Hmph, pregnancy is EASY." Then, as fate would have it, I began to actually experience REAL pregnancy symptoms. The all day nausea, the gagging, the throwing up on my toothbrush, the incredible fatigue, and have I mentioned my boobs yet? Whoa, I don't know what to do with these things! Never had this problem before.
So yeah...that's about where we stand. My first ultrasound is next Monday, which will be at about 10 weeks along, so we should be able to see our baby pretty clearly! We are both incredibly excited and also incredibly scared. It's just hard to know that no matter what I do, no matter how hard I try to take care of this new life, there is a chance that it will not live. The thought plagues my dreams and my thoughts. I am trying very hard to give it to God, to put our baby in his hands, but it's so hard. I don't want to end this post on a sad note, but I do want to be honest with all of you, and the honest truth is that I am petrified. So, my friends, I am asking for your prayers.
Thank you all for your sweet words of congratulations! Matt and I had fun reading what each of you had to say, your excitement helps me feel a little less anxious. Thank you!