Matt and I have had our last golden day of summer together. Today, he started teaching again, new students, new school year, new polo shirts. And as I got ready to start my day, I realized that this was the end of our last summer together that was just US.
Is it selfish of me to mourn this a little bit? I feel very torn. I can't wait to meet our child, I can't wait to introduce them to the glorious days of summer, to teach them to make mud-pie's and to slather their little body in sunscreen. But, at the same time, I know that I will miss the long evenings Matt and I spent just sitting on the porch and talking as the shadows lengthened. I'm going to miss the days where we just decided to go out on a little day trip together, our picnics, our hikes.
Life is changing, and while I am excited for that change, I am a little sad to see it come. I will forever treasure this last summer together.
I am still head over heels, giddy, and breathlessly in love with my husband, and I guess a part of me fears losing this feeling as we progress on this road called life. I know our relationship is changing, will always BE changing, but is it wrong to be a little sad right now? I feel so selfish.