Monday, March 8, 2010

The Dance Goes On

Some of you may remember this post, it was actually a guest post I wrote for a (now defunct?) blog called Domestigals. In that post I wrote about how Matt sometimes takes me in his arms and slowly begins to sway to the beat of his own love for me, and how that dancing used to embarrass me.

As he and I have traveled down this road called parenthood, I have noticed that sometimes my path seems farther away from him than I like. Some days we don't have our first kiss of the day until bedtime. Some days we don't share a kiss at all. And that? That is heartbreaking to me.

Two nights ago, after putting Jack to bed, I came out of the nursery and looked at my husband. I realized that in some small ways, I saw him for the first time in almost four months. I went to him, put MY arms around him, and began to sway to the beat of MY heart.

Matthew, I am sorry. I hope you know that you are a true blessing to me. That I have loved you, and will always love you, even when our paths seem a little distant.
I realized that I need to take time out of my day to invest in my husband. Yes, even if that means that I spend a little less time devoted to Jack. I know that the best thing I can give to Jack is the opportunity to grow up seeing his parents in a happy, loving, functional marriage.
Have you danced lately?

6 comments:

  1. bek that was a rllly nice and rllly real post..i feel like i hear a lot from parents that they have lost their relationship in their kids. Its def obvious your kids should be important to you but they should never take the spot of your husband/wife. dont b hard on yourself- I know u will learn to juggle it better when u get the hang of it more!

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  2. Awwwwww.

    And the answer is yes we have.


    Hugs, Jen

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  3. Being only a month in myself I know exactly what you are talking about. It gets hard to remember that you are STILL a wife not just a tired mommy. Thanks for the reminder. I'm giving hubby a big kiss the moment he walks in the door.

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  4. I totally get what you are saying. Sometimes it is so easy to forget to love the person you fell in love with!

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  5. Great post. It only took you four months, I'm impressed, cuz it took me 6! I started thinking about this last month and how sometimes the ONLY thing I talk to Daryl about is Hunter, especially after a crazy day with baby and then five hours at my job. And I feel horribly guilty. The other day we had a tickle-fight after Hunter went to bed (something we used to do ALL the time) and I realized just how much I miss one on one time with my hubby! So I decided the other day that I am going to make more of an effort to have more adult (sorely missed!) time with my Big D! :-)

    I'm glad you danced with your honey!!

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